Once in a while there becomes a time, when everything I touch is falling apart and there's nothing I can do about it. The only thing I would like to do then is to disappear somewhere where no problem could find me, be with friends to protect me from all the evil of this world, to held me from falling down.
And I'm scared back again, because nothing is under my control and I'm like a leaf on the wind, which can do nothing but watch with afraidness where it's heading.
People around me seem so strange even though I've known them for all my live. I'm afraid to screw something up so badly and I'm trying to explain but no one seems to understand what I'm saying. It's just like I'd speak some different language no one have ever heard before.
I don't know what should I do or where should I go. I don't know if I can talk with somebody, because I'm not sure he really cares or is just pretending.

I know nothing and the only thing I can be sure in my life is constant pain. Even if I try to belive in myself there are people appearing who know nothing about me and just want to crush me. I'm fragile, please don't...
But they do.